Re: Rides

(Before I begin I'd just like to say that I think that we should use xanga instead of blogger because I honestly believe there is no e-mail notification option, which is why I did not read your post until today.)

(Also, I read your xanga post earlier today, which I found quite interesting. Actually, I thought that it might contradict your previous post in here in a way, so I'm a little confused about how you feel right now. Either that xanga post is slightly, if any, related to our situation, or I must be going paranoid and trying to relate everything to it.)

I just want to let you know that I completely understand why all of the topics that you listed would caused a.) stress, b.) frustration, and c.) overall anger and irritation. Everything that you listed, from your perspective, would be very aggravating. In essence, the whole situation, which is recurring more times than should, is quite the pickle.

Yes, I totally agree that it is stressing to you and Molly that being able to secure a ride to and from school has so many under- and overlying problems, but I already spoke with Molly several times about it. There's no hard feelings, thankfully, and I've ascertained that she possesses no pent-up anger toward the situation or me.

On the other hand, you did (and probably, understandably, still do) contain anger/stress, as mentioned earlier. For that, I would like to apologize. It is my fault in not being able to handle the situation in a better way, I concur with your opinion on that matter. Sometimes, more often than not, I make mistakes in being able to handle certain situations. As do all people. I don't want to make excuses for any of my actions, and I also understand that I took for granted your time, which I also ask for your pardon for. I don't fully blame my father because I understand that that is how he is, and that logic does not always apply to everyone. Especially when it should.

In regards to your standing with Boram, I would like to mention that I never intended to force you or Boram into a situation where you two might bicker or argue. In fact, that is the sole purpose of why I volunteered to drive you and Molly. I know that not being able to be the driver now limits you to relying on Boram, and in a way that worries me but at the same time it also frustrates me that there is nothing to do about it also. One can only prayfor the best when there is nothing to be done.

And I furthermore agree with your statement about cherishing every moment left together in high school. As most of us are parting ways, that means every single time we hang out should be forever ingrained in our memory of high school and our friendships together. I don't want something to this degree to risk our friendship built over so many years. Though it may some insincere and trite, I have no other clear way of phrasing it. I'm sure you agree that you don't want to lose the friendships that are already at risk after graduation. I plan on keeping in touch with you, especially, so losing such a connection would be a grave loss.

There is one thing you mentioned that did spark my attention and that I disagree with. You mentioned that as a best friend you assumed that I would be able to do you/Molly a favor of this degree, which I partially understand. At the same time that statement seems to the belittle the fact that I tried to just that. Yet all people act differently when faced with different scenarios (obviously) and that I guess I did not act in the way that you expected me, or would have in the same situation. I know you said that you assumed and that is why this occurred, which is understandable. Yet is it also true that once you have concluded that someone has failed to meet up to what you thought they would that your trust in them drops? I'm taking a stab by saying this but if that is the case, then that also is another major loss on my part. I don't mean any of this, by the way, in a hostile tone. I sincerely wish to know, because I care about our friendship. I'm not sure if you feel exactly the same way as I do, as I know you and me often are on different wavelengths, but me, I don't want our friendship to suffer because of this. Do you?

Vacationing and a Conversation of Dorks

Your thought is actually well thought out. I agree that we'll probably be too wrapped up with graduation, parties, farewells, and various other things including our jobs to be taking a week, week and 1/2 long vacation at the beginning of June. We didn't really foresee such events when we first were talking about California during our stay at Robin's. (with the demon dogs!)

I feel as though the timing for California is essential. It will make it or break it, for sure. If too early into summer, not only with the moment be not as memorable, but we also might not even be able to go if we buy the plane tickets for early summer. However, too late into the summer and we'll be even more busier. I know for sure that if I attend UW I'll have to move there earlier, and packing will take like a week. I'll have to have time to get used to my surroundings before the actual school semester commences, and so forth. You'll be busy too, if you go to UF! You'll be dorming and packing as well, so I'm pretty sure our CA trip can't be too too late into summer either. When the time gets closer and this plan becomes more tangible we should really discuss the exact dates.

Until then I'm trying to save up for the ticket and cost! Actually, saving money has become more and more hard during this senior year. I feel like I'm just spending more than I have.

On a funny/entertaining note:
I felt like a complete winner when I got Lawrence's phone number. To tell you the truth I kinda feel disappointed (like a failure) because you say you don't need it even though you told me you did on the phone... But when I actually obtained the number I finally felt like I had done something to help our friendship out! FAIL. lol.

I basically pretended like I was good friends with him and that I missed talking to him LOL. I'm such a jerk/two-faced liar but it was for a good cause! He's a jerk too so he deserved what was coming!! Here's part of the convo: (It's hilarious!)
1/4/2010
9:04:55 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
heyy
1/4/2010
9:04:58 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
what's up?
1/4/2010
9:05:07 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
heyy!
1/4/2010
9:05:13 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
not much.. how about you?
1/4/2010
9:05:20 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
school and work lol
1/4/2010
9:05:22 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
just boring stuff
1/4/2010
9:05:27 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
how have you been?
1/4/2010
9:05:29 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
ahh..
1/4/2010
9:05:38 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
pretty good! :) how about yourself?
And it continued with this bantering until I was like...'well I seem like a really good person right now. I think I'll just ask for his number and then ditch!'
1/4/2010
9:14:09 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
you know what i just realized?
1/4/2010
9:14:15 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
nahhhhhh immaa QQ a river
1/4/2010
9:14:16 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
what?
1/4/2010
9:14:19 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
i dont have your # anymore D:
1/4/2010
9:14:22 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
wah
1/4/2010
9:14:40 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
911
1/4/2010
9:14:40 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
=]
1/4/2010
9:14:45 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
LOL
1/4/2010
9:15:01 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
ohh so you're a firefighter?
1/4/2010
9:15:06 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
you do have a job!
1/4/2010
9:16:59 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
lol
1/4/2010
9:17:07 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
yapp 911 is my numbaaaaa! :D
1/4/2010
9:17:25 PM
L.a.g
Su, Sew, Soo
(510)374-2641
1/4/2010
9:18:01 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
thank you~
1/4/2010
9:18:05 PM
Su, Sew, Soo
L.a.g
we should chat more often
And then I ditched. LOLOLOL. I felt like the biggest winner of all time. After all, I totally duped him! Well now he thinks we're friends but I had to take the fall for you! I'm really good at lying to him haha. I win.

Oh btw, I changed by quote of the week box!

New Beginnings

2010. Just how many years has it been?


It may be the start of a new year, but it's also the start of a new life...for both of us.

So many changes will be happening to us this year, some that may bring us closer together or further apart. But that's where this blog comes in!

One of my New Year's Resolutions, believe it or not, is to keep in touch with you, even past this graduation. I realize that with college everyone is going to be up to their ears with homework, bills, packing, and good-byes... and I'm sure that it will be more real as time goes on, but I vow to keep up this blog. It's our friendship!

Along this year, I'm sure there will be times that we'll be hassled to deal with posting about how our day went, or what's been happening. Some points can't get across when written electronically, and we'll have to phone and have webcam dates ;) We'll be thousands of miles away from each other, three hours time difference, and new memories and people will take up so much of our time!
Whatever the case, we have to keep up this blog!

We've been friends for how many years now? Ever since the middle of 3rd grade? That's 9 years. Don't you agree that we have so many more to share together too? That's the main reason I want to update this blog.


So cheers to us, to the new year, and to everything that comes along with it.